is it my fault??

starting from now, i decide to break my relationship with him. sometime, frend's advice is good for our follow. marriage is still far away from me, i reli need to think and think again before i do it .

i know his busier his work and everyday working until so late and cant come back to visit me. i understand his problem now. this morning, i saw a newspaper, singapore got promotion, everyone have malaysia passpost will have 50% discount to visit all famous place like sentosa entrances ticket half price, safari zoo singapore, singapore flyer, etc...therefore, i told him about that and told him i plan 7 june(public holiday) go to visit him and we can go there for visiting to relax our mind.

BUT, he scold me just wasted money for travel and after that just know said not enough money to use. WHY??? my aid just want get a chances to visit him and accompany with him go to visit Singapore Flyer which is the first taller ferris wheel in the world. but, he refused what i plan to him and scold me!!! is it my fault????????????

he ask me dun go to find me somemore, waiting i have job at singapore ,need to interview, therefore go to do the passport and come, and the reason for him also because his said singapore everything are expensive, he wont support me to go find him at all, all is paid for myself include all the transport money ,hotel,etc...NVM, then i ask him come back to visit me, he always said he no time come back, no money come back, need to do pass, discuss next time, not in current time to come back.

i go find him, he said dun wan, ask him back, he also dun wan. then what he wan??
always said me is a free people, nothing to do, wasted money to buy something. he is busier person, need to work until die just have money used. i where got waste money wor, is it buy some food also cannot? buy the food i wan to eat also cannot? sometime buy a bit expensive food like fast food. KFC, MC, pizza hut also cannot?

why he said everything is correct, then i am a person who do wrong every time? Why i always wan to follow what he said, and his cannot follow me. i hate him, i really hate me. he just know scold me as a selfish people but i think, the most selfish people is him. i will not to connect with him anymore and dun wan argue with this screw up people . hopefully i can recover as soon as possible, just concentrate to the exam and this semester.

try me best!!!