No wording......

erm, the title for tis post really got abit weird!!

haiz, i not have any english word can express my feeling now!! is mayb due to my poor english, anyway, hope my friend can catch up what i writing in here...that is quite long story...

the story start in below:
it has been 5 day past since that " event" sunddenly and 1st time been happened in my life...
this "event" i could not share with other, the person who know the "event" just hin, cheng eng, enid (i think they have to keep secret to me gua). anyway, that guy start to ask me do the work on today..BUT

that is due to my friend, huoy jiuan...(she help me speak with that guy)
that guy told my friend, i am not concern and carefull in doing my job, always wrong...
and the big problem is, that guy still care about that "event"..
see, isit that guy too stupid and stingy,i am just a trainee and got ur allowance RM300 only, i'm not his permament staff, his not teach me anything and ask me to handle it!!his tot i am a QS have a good experiences. NO, it can be said, they also dunno that thing, sometime said like this, sometime said other, and, sometime i want to follow the guy instruction, sometime i want to follow another guy instruction!!hey, who's instruction should i follow?? if ur company really no QS, pls dun accept any trainee, that not good for our, i not learn anything in ur company...i just touch in measurement and got a scold/ blame from u!!

friend, isit my fault? u r my ah head, isit u believe the trainee figure?? should u need to do second checking?? am i rite?? his tell me a wrong method to do measure, after figure wrong, his blame on me...haiz...mayb in other ppl eye, i have big fault in that' event' but, i had think and think, and find 100 reason to tell myself, isit my fault, the answer i got is NOT!! i NOT wrong!! that is tat guy problem!! we dont have any experiences in real construction, u should do a checking and give us a real method to solve my problem, not give me see his shit face, blame me, not bother me, complain me to all collaegue... i still a new QS, and haven got a job b4, why his treat me like a "hollow man"(cant see me) ....really NO WORDING....

tat guy always wan me give him excetly figure, how i can do?? every QS different figure rite??i do a 1st measure, i got my figure, other person redo that measure, his got a different figure, that also not big fault rite? but he said, i am not be carefull!!!!!!!!
haiz...his company not have any QS there, when i faced problem, who can teach me?? tat guy said, i always not doing the double checking and submitted to him!! hey, his really shit one, u throw the project and ask me do my ownself, pls, i not cleaver as enid or cheng eng, how come i can handle it ?hiazzzzz....

until now, his still care and angry me, all colleague not bother me, my recomanded letter will be "died"......haiz, this is really not a good company... my friend' father working with them b4, his think they are paid higher and nid his father do alot of work...finally, his father sure resign la! tell u all, all the staff in this company, all have a family relationship, when outside ppl go in, they treat us like a 'pendatang asing' paid low and wan us to do alot of thing!!shit.........

today, i got my 2nd allowance liao, see, i think my friend already finish used that money, for me, i just go it........today already 2nd week(11/11) haiz........NO wording again...why they can stuck to paid the trainee allowance, RM 300 also come out late!! Actually the real scenario is, the boss dun wan to sign the check...........haizzzzz.

left 12 day to go....times slow......god pls blessing me ....